Embodiment

I have always been an old soul – at a young age, just knowing what was the right, healthy decision for me and what was not. I still rebelled against it, but I knew. When I was teaching yoga in my 20s, I spoke wisdom in my classes that I knew was correct logically. But I had not followed it long enough or lived it long enough to trust myself.

Searching, seeking for something. Truth. What is true? I thought – I need to know more, do more, see more. I traveled. I did Peace Corps. I studied the Bible. I meditated. I got married. I got divorced. I got my PhD.

Religion, service, and academia all seemed like reasonable places to look. But even while pursuing these things, I look back in my journals and see staring in plain sight the number of times I knew the truth. For example, at 25, I wrote, “all I need is friendship and purpose.” When moving to a new country and city to pursue my career, I wrote, “make sure to invest more deeply in friendship than anything else.”

My youth was showing up in not trusting myself. Thinking there was still something beyond I needed to know. More than words, embodied wisdom is rooted deep and resonates clearly. I now am living by and know these to be true:

You are what you seek.

You get to choose.

God is seeking more consciousness and love through you.